All those scenarios playing in my head, driving me crazy. My mind drifts away to where my heart probably lies. What is he doing? Is he thinking about me? I start imagining things that could be possible if we were close as couples should be. Sometimes throughout the day, when random things take place, I start having those scenarios and conversations in my head, like I'm actually talking to him and he is actually replying. I blame myself and say:" girl u don't know him the way you should and he doesn't too". Then why do I feel the way I do?! I'm not even sure if this is love or a random crush that lasts for a really long time.
And there lies the problem. I'm afraid that I won't be able to know true love. Like how am I supposed to tell if it is true love knocking my door and not just a crush that would fade with time??? I'm afraid that someday love would pass me by without even knowing. I mean I don't want the moon, even though its light is beautiful, and even though it reflects the Sun's light, but it never is the Sun. And I want the Sun, as simple and as hard as that may sound.
Afraid? Yes I am. But I'll wait for my Sun even if the eclipse lasts for years. Love is always there, we just have to take the journey to find it, because everyone wants to be blinded by the real light on a beautiful sunny day. Everyone needs LOVE!
